I got my machine today, it’s by my bed. I guess my pressures are 12 min and  19max. I guess I need a machine that goes on the higher levels of pressure  Tonight will be my first night with it. I need to use it at least 4 hours a night to meet compliance or else I’ll have to pay close to 3 grand, joy. 

I just broke down to my boyfriend about how screwed I am over money and cried asking who would help me and where would I go if I lost my apartment and he just tells me he doesn’t know… I always sort of thought he was a safety net and he would at least give me a place to stay for a month if I needed it but I guess not. He also told me to ask my family and I said I have before to no avail. I also pointed out that they rather me live in a homeless shelter in the same town than with them. I am so scared, I think that is why I shouted in my sleep. I do everything for myself and hate relying on others but sometimes I wish someone would just save me.
I felt strange all day… and I just figured out why; I didn’t take any medication today.

I actually yelled loud enough this morning while I was sleeping that I woke myself up. It’s been a long time since my sleep talking woke me up. 

I’m exhausted, and I have a bit of a fever. This is another reason I hate going home, I always catch something horrible. 

 katisconfused said: the sleeping on floor is possibly even worse. WOW YOU HAVE A SLEEP DISORDER YOU KNOW WHAT WILL HELP? THE FLOOR.

Exactly

 katisconfused said: 8C

Weight loss cures all! Mom didn’t want to deal so just let my sister be a sassy brat. 

Highlights include:

• no one mentioning my weight loss
• no one really saying anything when I mentioned it
• being told by my aunt to lose weight to cure my sleep disorder (literally with in a minute of me telling them about how much I lost)
• My aunt continueing to insist weight loss with cure everything despite me saying my nasil passage is small
• My brother being a grumpy teenager
• my 10 year old sister refusing to let me have the bigger of two couches because the white couch “hurt her neck”
• having to share the living room with my sister who grinds her teeth and makes weird noises in her sleep
• having to sleep on the floor since the white couch always fucks my back up
• taking 3 hours to fall asleep
• waking up at five am from my hips hurting from sleeping on the hardwood floor and climbing onto the freezing white leather couch that I DON’T FUCKING FIT ON 
• waking up after very little sleep in a shit ton of pain

whatshouldwecallfibro:

Is it possible to get brain fog even without fibro? Because I get like this all the time. 

Oh god, eating food was a terrible idea. Why did I think I could eat food and not get sick today? I even cooked something really nice and ate it but now I will be sickly feeling all night. Urrrggllll why did I think I could be a human today? 

 katisconfused said: THAT IS REALLY WELL??! Yeah honestly idk how that is supposed to helpful for sleeping I can’t even get to sleep when there are too many sheet wrinkles if someone tels me I have to wear that thing NO THERE WILL BE NO SLEEP

Yeah.. it sucked. I also had a nasil strip on underneath which I hated, it was adhesive and right under the place where the mask touched. I bought some of those nose wideners that go in your nose, that have no glue and reusable and will be keeping to those.

Also I did my first nasal cleanse today and nearly gagged on the saline. They want me to do it 10 times a day, haaha I don’t think I can even manage 3 times.